Last time we had a white Christmas was 2005. This year the ground was covered with snow and it was  really refreshing. Although this year there was a lot less snow than in 2005 it didn´t matter. We spent the holidays with my in-laws and on the way there we saw the most beautiful northern lights in the sky. I felt like even the nature had turned against me. It showed its most beautiful sides and I couldn´t enjoy it because my Christmas spirit was gone due to the upcoming divorce. Kids enjoyed and that was the most important part of everything. Otherwise I couldn´t care less. I´m so wiped out, physically and mentally. And the future holds more difficult problems for me to solve and handle.

Right now I feel that life is so unfair!

This was Christmas 2005.