From now on I will stand my back against the wall so no one can stab me in it. I also made sure that there are no carpets under my feet that can be pulled away. I just had enough. More than enough. The situation I knew we all were going to face some day came too soon and in an unexpected way. I feel so bad for the kids. Their hearts will be broken and I know they won´t understand. Once again I find myself in a situation where I am the one who has to explain. It is not an easy job when I have trouble understanding things myself. I will probably tell you more about this later. After this event is over.